Chaos theory is a large and complicated field of mathematics (which I know but a little about), and probably not a very good thing to base your life on. But it has one popular metaphore, which is the butterfly-effect.

It works something like this: some small change (like the flapping of a butterfly wing) can have a huge effect somewhere else (like causing a storm in hong-kong).

Anyway, everyone except for me has probably seen the movie, etc.

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I was thinking about life today. Shocking as it sounds.

I often think about how I should go about being what I want to be. Gandhi famously said “be the change you want to see in the world.” These words haunts me.

When I look back in the last few years, I see that:
Most of all, it is the beliefs and values I carry, the attitudes I cultivate, the opinions I choose to hold, that are what shape my future, that are what I become.

Dear God.
Let me watch carefully within, let me take care to love and nurture the garden of my heart and mind. I will endeavour to recklessly cultivate that which is good within me, that which loves and accepts others and this world you have given me. I will weed carefully around those that bring fruit and squash those small thoughts and attitudes that will grow to evil. Help me Lord, to remember as I tend this patch of fertile soil, that the wild and unexpected can bring the greatest fruit.